Wikee!

2009-05-31T11:27:00.001+08:00

ive.moved.
relink.yee.
http://shoutkoochyoutloud.blogspot.com/
xD

2009-05-25T18:43:00.004+08:00

im.sooooper.hungry..
im.yearning.for.french.fries.
im.munching.on.some.cookie.
im.patiently.waiting.for.my.English.results.
im.missing.Ficky.n.wondering.what.is.he.up.to.
im.loving.each.and.every.hour.of.werking.BUT.despise.irritating.effing.customers.
im.clueless.of.when.my.pay.will.be.release.
n.lastly.

im.desperate.for.faz's.companionship.n.irresistible.hugs.and.kisses.

gahh.

2009-05-22T18:47:00.002+08:00

its.been.a.while.since.i.last.post.anything.related.to.school.

frankly,school.was.fine.
but.with.the.exhaustion.from.werking.late.through.the.nite.really.made.my.morning.a.lil.bit.sucky.
i.slept.through.many.of.the.lessons.just.now..
but.exams.over.bebeh.so.im.pretty.glad.i.can.doze.off.without.feeling.much.guilty.
gee~
im.sick.

received.many.of.our.exams.paper.back.fer.the.past.two.days.
n.im.not.satisfied.wif.many.of.my.results.
~except.for.sosial.studies.
yurh.
i.just.hope.that.i'll.buck.up.n.made.some.amendments.to.my.marks.in.time.to.come.

^^wa.nk.masok.sp.larhh.
gahh!

well~
mr.principal.came.to.our.class.just.know.mentioning.about.a."cobweb".issue.
n.one.time.
out.of.my.utter.horror.
he.ask.me.about.my.opinion.in.relating.to.this.
gahh.
im.just.glad.that.i.didnt.stutter.
*sometimes.i.just.hate.to.sit.under.the.teacher's.nose.
its.too.front.n.too.scary.
wakaka.
~exaggerating.siak.

today's.plan.with.boo.was.rearranged.yet.again.
i.was.pissed.fer.a.moment.but.then.realised.that.he.was.cancelling.it.out.of.my.own.sickness.
in.the.end.im.not.pissed.
happy.indeed.
gee~
tanx.cyg..
gahh.iluvusoomuch!
woo~

2009-05-18T20:25:00.003+08:00

liverpool vs singapore.
on 26th july.

~something.definite.which.everyone.should.be.watching.
xD

I cant wait till tmrw.
gonna sunbathing and flying whipping,bebeh!
weee~
lol.
still hasnt set my mind to any clothes yet though.
awesome~

2009-05-17T20:38:00.003+08:00

absurdities.of.me.syaff.nuriha.

2009-05-16T00:04:00.002+08:00

Well.it.seems.that.all.the.essential.sources.i.read.up.for.history.exam.was.juz.a.mere.wastage.of.time.
didnt.managed.to.complete.one.of.the.essays.
n.automatically,
i.lose.13.freaking.marks.just.like.that.
woo?
lets.blame.the.teachers.
wee~

3.more.exam.to.go.bby!
math.ppr.1.
physic.
SOVA.

okey.
was.tagged.by.didie.to.do.this.survey.
so.here.it.goes.

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
- cheeks and neck.
2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
- effing.exhausted~
3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
- its.been.quite.a.while.i.took.one.
4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- sometimes.when.i.did.something.bad.
5. Would you ever donate blood?donate ??
- yeah~
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
- dont.tink.so...but.close.fren.bnyk.urh.
7. Do you want someone dead?
- no.
8. What does your last message says?
- "haha.werk.was.fucking.EXHAUSTING.sak.Lol.me.now.otw.hme.oso"-my.BOO
9. What are you thinking right now?
- $$.N.faz.
10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
- FAZ!
11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
- 11.30.++
12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
- moi.cousins'
13. Is someone on your mind?
- yeah.
14. Who was the last person who texted you?
- BOOboo!
15. Tag 10 random people.
1. faz.
2. aisyah
3. aisha
4. naeemah
5. era
6. chan
7. aman
8. mira
9. nuriha
10.didie
16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
- abg.faiz.
17. Is no. 3 a male or female?
- female.
18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
- ntah.
19. What is no. 1 studying about?
- business.related.
20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
- a.few.hours.back.
21. Is no. 4 single?
- yeah~
22. Say something about no. 3.
- she's preety!.n.white.xD
23. What do you think about no. 3 & no. 5 being together?
- woahh.impossible.
24. Desrcibe no. 9.
- my.bestbud.since.pri2.
25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight?
- they.dun.noe.each.other.
26. Do you like no. 8?
- okOK.lARH..

k.end.

2009-05-09T20:12:00.003+08:00

strolled.along.vivo.city.with.faz.yesterday.to.hunt.a.job.fer.myself..
and.to.my.utter.suprised..
i.was.hired.after.stopping.at.only.two.shops/branch!
so.dat.also.means.that.we.took.less.than.30.mins.to.attain.myself.a..freaking.job.
awesome.yet.again.
nyehh~
perhaps.i.was.juz.being.lucky.
OR..
maybe..
faz.has.become.my.lucky.charm.in.which.i.am.so.glad.that.we.love.each.other.
haha.
yeah~
n.now..
sometimes.i.wish.that.im.able.rewine.the.time.where.he.was.at.my.house,
watching.DvD.till.3.am,,he.snoozing.away.on.my.lap,,puff2.at.the.kitchen.window.and...stuff..
ahh gahh.
i.luv.you.aidil.

woo~
alalala.

2009-05-06T17:53:00.002+08:00

BomBom.Fierce.xD

ow.well.

isnt.she.cute?

lol.

yea~

received.my.history.test.back.earlier.today.n.to.say.i.was.pretty.impressed.of.myself.=]

even.Mr.Royston.was.shocked.of.my.results.in.compared.to.all.my.miserable.marks.last.year.

yay~good.job.syu!

woo~

tomorrow.is.the.start.of.mid.year.exam.

n.the.only.reason.y.im.excited.is.bcoz.we'll.be.release.earlier.than.usual.

yahh.

thats.all.

2009-05-04T20:34:00.004+08:00

its.funny.and.cute.whenever.syaza.is.around.
coz.it.seems.that.everybody.will.start.behaving.like.a.kid.and.start.cooing.while.carrying.her.
~its.eccentric.how.a.child.can.managed.to.alter.the.atmosphere.at.home.wif.juz.her.presence.
BOMBOM. xD

Gee.
3.more.days.bby.
to~drain.out.all.the.irrelevant.things..
n.to.absorb.all.the.relevant.notes.
mid.year.mid.year.mid.year!
woohoo.

2009-05-03T18:19:00.003+08:00

sent.that.bloody.thing.1.more.time.and.i.swear.i'll.cut.you.
what.the.fuck.r.u.trying.to.do....ruining.my.sweet.relationship.wif.faz?
get.lost!
fucking.asshole.

2009-05-02T21:04:00.002+08:00

I.MISS.MY.BOO.REAL.BAD...
='[

2009-05-01T14:20:00.003+08:00

everything.seems.to.be.moving.so.swiftly.and.im.scared.that.i.cant.keep.up.and.lose.track.
gharr!
it.1.may.and.that.also.means.tht.mid.year.exm.is.in.6.more.days.
holidays.drifting.closer..ow.mann!.i.need.a.freaking.job.real.soon~
a.job.to.ease.my.boredom.during.the.1.month.june.holidays.
how.sweet.is.that.
lol.

2009-04-30T15:03:00.005+08:00

its.terrifying.
everything.is.

can.i.cry..now?
=/

mann,i.cant.
n.dont.worry,coz.i.wont.

~

gahh.
someone.make.me.dropped.to.a.hyperventilation.juz.now.
n.
somehow.
it.has.really.made.my.day.
tq.la.

2009-04-26T18:40:00.003+08:00

i was reminiscing through all the memories that we shared

and somehow all the difficult moment we've been through has brought us together in a good shape right now.

uve shown me the good and the bad side of life and it was such a momentarily chapter of my life which ive treasured the most.

you've present me wit such great love and care in which it is so unavoidable to love you back with the same capacity.

no other love from anyone had outshined your love towards me..

i have faith in you,in myself,that we can make it through..

i might get jealous or pissed to aneting irrelevant,

but thats just becoz i love you soo much to bother..

ur horrible attitude i'll try to conceive..

my sucky behaviour i'll alter.

incoming probs we'll grasp hold together and not fall.

ur irresistble lust turned me on..

and lastly ur maniac_ness brought most of my laughter..

and for that Tobias Faz Maniac,i,Koochy,

luv you cyg with all my hart.

amcm,

sweet.tak.aku?

wakaka~

imissfaz.=[

2009-04-23T15:07:00.003+08:00

Calm down.

Options.

Positive thinking.

Explore.

or~

Seek help.

ive managed to attempt olie yesterday~n im so happy for myself.xD

2009-04-22T23:45:00.002+08:00

How am i suppose to noe the reason of why this tiff is happening if u just refuse to tell me?
ive had enuf of us fighting over trivial matter.
n now i noe i am the cause of it.
because it just seems like it.
im drowning in this guilty plight wif no apparent reason.
tell me why..coz its not fair,cyg.

imy.='[

2009-04-21T20:22:00.003+08:00

Had.mine.2.4km.run.juz.now.

well,perhaps.tats.the.reason.y.i.was.effing.fatigue.n.effing.sticky.right.after.school.

-or.maybe.its.juz.the.weather.

as.a.result,

plan.wif.Boo.i.deliberately.cancelled,

now.wth.

imisshimsoomuch.=[

2009-04-20T19:15:00.002+08:00

To.think.i.came.to.school.alone.todae.when.syaff.actually.woke.up.n.bathe.together.wif.me.this.morning.
good.work.fer.me.
coz.i.dont.think.i'll.attend.school.if.not.fer.the.pleasant.changes.tat.had.happened.in.the.recent.phase.of.my.time.
no.doubt.i.felt.good.wif.myself.
finally,eng.and.cme.project.we.had.finally.completed.
a.few.irrelevant.misunderstading.happening.around.here.and.there.
n.it.seems.that.i.cant.be.bothered.to.b.into.any.of.them.
guess.studying.is.really.a.main.priority.right.now.
woo~

had.an.effing.great.day.out.wif.era.miin.and.syaff.last.sat.
met.era.n.miin.at.Penin,then.we.moved.to.Far.East,head.to.Marina.Square.soon.after.to.meet.up.wif.Boo,gave.him.some.ciggs..
den.we.rushed.to.Bugis,and.met.up.wif.Davin.n.coterie.
we.had.sheesha.wif.them.and.woah,it.was.pretty.akward.n.dope.
basically.we.didnt.interact.much.wif.Davin.n.co..
until,11.45pm.
we.finished.sheeshaiing.n.then.chill.at.bugis.fer.a.while.
we.get.bored.n.miin.suggested.that.we.head.to.geylang.then.East.Coast.Park.
n.the.planned.was..by.WALKING.
soo,the.nine.of.us.walked.from.Bugis.to.Geylang(to.buy.some.stuff).n.then.to.East.Coast.Park.
eventually.we.took.2hr30min.to.reach.East.Coast.
n.Davin.n.co.was.actually.a.bunch.of.funny.people.
we.bonded.wif.the.co.n.that.added.to.a.more.memorable.moment.
okey,so.i.wont.get.into.much.details.since.i.hav.a.truckload.of.things.to.be.done.
so.yeah~
it.was.effing.fun.
n.Era.was.effing.nice.too.
kao.baek!
thanks.fer.everything.again!!
gharr!
syaff.n.me.reached.home.at.11.30am.the.next.morning.=

slept.fer.a.merely.2.hrs.upon.reaching.home.n.immediately.ciap2.n.met.up.wif.Boo.
we.had.our.usual,
i.went.to.yishun.n.we.get.back.to.my.house.a.few.hours.later.
yahh.
imisshimsoomuchrightnow!!!

Boo,amcm.ferst.day.of.school?
bez.per?
tell.me.abt.it.soon.k.bby!
ily.

I.juz.came.to.a.realization.that.i.tend.to.get.pissed.quite.so.often.recently.
especially.to.ya.
hmm.
earghhh!
i.hate.myself.sometimes.

ok.bye.

2009-04-17T19:19:00.003+08:00

things.are.gettin.pretty.tight.at.home.and i.seems.to.be.taking.things.a.little.to.lightly.
or.i.guess.its.just.that.deres.nothing.i.can.do.nor.all.my.sisters.to.help.easing.the.tension.
its.weird.
suddenly,i.felt.that.this.family.of.mine.seems.to.become.poor.
or.should.i.say.shortage.of.money?
the.definition.is.still.the.same,so.why.shud.i.bother.
maybe.the.word.POOR.is.a.lil.bit.too.strong.though.
oh.wth.
gharrr!
things.are.getting.out.of.hand.till.he.doesnt.even.gave.us.our.school.allowance.for.today.
n.most.of.the.previous.days.too.
ow.well.
it.is.a.lucky.thing.that.ive.learned.to.save.up.
or.i.hev.no.idea.of.wat.to.become.of.us.
mere.starvation.during.school.hours?or.just.turn.into.two.walking.skeletons.

arghhh!my.guyfriends.are.stating.the.fact.that.ive.become.more.arrogant.

me?sombong?impossible.
-i.miss.them.

but.i.miss.FAZ.more.though~

kol.me.(or.text).me.asap.abt.the.updates.of.this.afternoon.k.boo.

ily.

2009-04-13T18:30:00.003+08:00

i.believes.in.a.theory.that.says-
the.more.friends.we.make,the.more.enemies.we'll.made.
n.from.my.direct.point.of.view,
it.seems.to.be.so.precisely.true.

ow.well.

make.lesser.friends.people.

LOL.
xD

2009-04-12T11:51:00.002+08:00

werking.at.G.M.ROXY.HOTEL.was.effing.dreadful.
n.i.didnt.expect.it.to.be.that.bad.
YET.IT.WAS.EXTREMELY.BAD.
lol.
the.managers.were.just.an.insane.bunch.of.people.=x
~a.tall.dark.indian.man.cried.n.went.missing.during.the.function.after.being.screamed.at.by.one.of.the.manager.
n.tats.the.only.funny.part.about.it.all.

haha.

ate.ayam.penyet.wif.aisyah.yesterday.at.lucky.plaza.
n.the.food.was.effing.nice!
especially.the.drink.
bandung+sprite=sedaap.oi!
we.talked.about.stuff.on.the.way.n.i.hope.she.would.abide.wif.all.those.obstacles.
stay.strong.gerl.
woo~

2009-04-05T12:39:00.003+08:00

my niece is sooo cute i dont get bored watching her slp.

2009-04-03T22:09:00.002+08:00

NUR SYAZA ASYURA BTE ALIZAN.

Oh my,

isnt she cute?

gahh!

didnt realised how quick time flies n eventually, IVE BECOME AN AUNTIE!!!

hehe.

2009-03-27T17:50:00.005+08:00

i miss these bunch:-

2009-03-22T18:58:00.005+08:00

*PICTURES ATTACK!*

TRIP WIF SWITHEARTS

Stick leg.woo

syu,syaf,aisha.

naeemah,syaff,syu,aisha.

BATAM TRIP.

everybody IS HAPPY.

volleyballers?nyehh~

biggest bridge at BATAM.

SYU n SYAFF k'oke infront of the whole lot.

hes cute. woo!=x

theres more pictures actually, but,im just too plain lazy to upload it.

kapoot!

2009-03-19T11:36:00.002+08:00

IM BACK!!!
WOOOOHOOOO!
haha i wonder if anyone even realised that i was 'away' to Batam for the past 4 days.
lol.
the trip was FUCKING FUN!
yet,its all over.
move on wa.
i miss 'SYAF brother'!
gahh.
k pictures are still wif Nuraisha.
nyehh~i'll upload soon!

meeting boo later!
yay!
daaaxD

2009-03-12T17:52:00.002+08:00

thats a freaking bombshell.
ok, actually not.
it is so predictable,yet im not shielding myself from exploding.
unfortunately, i am still wondering if ever these changes will overturn drastically or becomes one of it's contradiction.

go ponder.
woo.
xD

2009-03-09T19:04:00.002+08:00

Im ranked 2 fer physics.

suprised? absolutely.

woo.

2009-03-08T12:33:00.005+08:00

miraculously, had a mini bdae party at home yesterday.

we ordered kfc at the very last minute.while the cake,however, was a mere suprise.
i told mum " wa tknk ape2 cume nk duet jekk.."

mum gave me 50 bucks n eventually, dad came home from werk with a cake on his hand.

lucky me, i guess.

2009-03-07T19:05:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

TO ME~

weee xD

omg im finally sixteen! da bole keje pat roxy daa..

thank you for all the marvelous gifts n sweet wishes! ^^

happy advance 18th birthday to NINIE!

semoga pjg umur n murah rezki.

wee!

2009-02-28T11:32:00.003+08:00

muke-muke WANTED.

hahaha.xD

*cross refer to post 19 feb.

2009-02-27T16:33:00.002+08:00

8 more days!
cant wait! cant wait!
woo.
xD

2009-02-23T18:51:00.001+08:00

sat
bought a new school shoes while Syaff bought a new school bag (n dat's why my shoe is extra white todae =p)
nurr , ya n faz tagged along.
each me n syaff were given 60 bucks from mum to spend on those necessities , yea now im left wif 2 bucks.
woohoo.

sun
was chatting wif Ficky wen suddenli he ajak to go k'oke wif yan, zai n kam. (i tink so.)
i agreed since basically ive no chores at home n its been quite a while since i met up wif ficky n the rest.So the last minute fantasize plan became a reality but only ficky n yan turned up. we headed to Grandlink. i was given a choice so instead of singing we changed plan n played pool. yeah it was fun.
yan conquered each of the game. first set was between me n yan . i lose wif one ball left. i was leading when suddenli yan's luckiness strike. damm it.
followed by yan n ficky. ficky lose. me n yan again. i lose, again. nex ficky n yan , ficky lose. den the last game was between me n ficky. I LOSE , YET AGAIN.
nyehh it was amazing overall. woo!
yan n ficky invite me to lepak wif them later that nite at j.east wif their friends. But i head straight home knowing that i'll get tired in school the next day. so yeah. mit up again soon guys!

i immediately changed n went straight to bed upon reaching home. k im tired to type in eng.
ok go malay.
tgah dalam syok mimpi2 tibe2 an unknown no called. so after a few moments of alter confusion between us finally itu iswat daa. dier tgh lepak ngan his fren kat bawah my block so he thought nk ajak wa turon. i didnt. tido pon baek. yeah.

school was fine.
i failed my chem.(which i tot was easy.lol.)

k abg izan is reaching home in a few min.
gotta go.

n bby !
ariel tanye hav u learn higinia,the guillotine,her portrait in black n fire of night yet?
gahh.
imy.
nyehh ily too.
xD

k daa.

2009-02-20T23:27:00.008+08:00

the power of editing^^nyehh~

focus on my eyes , unique erh?

one side is small while the other side is big.

woo.

hepppiii 19th bdaaaaeeeee muhd AIDIL fadzly !!!

cyg dier bnyk2.

woo.

went ctylink juz now.

saw firoifir n naufal whom i havent met since last dec.

okey. n firorfir hair is hawt.
woo.
n i hate that fucking short-hair-gerl from a different coterie,effing much!

erghh.

i failed my physic. 17-35.

n history.7-15.

by a mere 1/2 a mark.

im so unlucky.

a poem tat faz did 1 year ago which was found im my archieve.

omg hes at my house ryte now yet im still missing him.

aku weird.

remember the day tat changed our destiny?
me and my boys went out when we were confronted by someting pretty.
like the angels you suddenly appear,
you made all my conscience dissapear.
it wasn't like faz,it wasn't like me,
to fall heads over heels for you so easily.
but i did n never once regretted.
and come to think of it was dat day really fated?
but for 11 months we never let our feelings free,
till the worm feast on our hearts so hungrily.
up till then, neither of us had any clue,
day by day, both of us start to love the other through n through.
you waited four long months bfore she finally let him free
tried not to lie but confess you're the only one for me.
for 13 months you were left to rue,
wether or not to say the phrase ''i love you''
and wen it happened, it wasnt wat you expected.
the sea so calm suddenli overcame with tidals,
yet u held on to mast n got through the perils.
and when the sun appeared,
your heart bacame cleared.
took me by suprise you did.
as i started to see how much u mean to me.
and so started a new chapter,
you lifted up the quil to end this chapter.
hurting me you promised you'll never ever,
you claimed me as ur greatest treasure.
and for tat syuhaidah bte zainol abidin dear,
i promiz to love u forever n ever...
ily cyg.

the end.
aww..=/

2009-02-19T18:11:00.003+08:00

Hepppppiiii B'daeee kakkk Erliii!

woo.

im fatigue.

was forced to view the volleyballs' final today.

n damn, shuqun volleyballers were effing GOOD!

we emerged as champion fer most of the division.

n yurh we had fun laughing our ass out at cck stadium, entertained by aisyah's absurd act.

haha omg do the sawan clap again!!

gahh!

we also received our ic size photograph.

everbody was complaining bout how ugly they looked.

too bad that my scanner isnt weking or u guys may see each of our horrendous faces.

haha.

nyehh~

ya and me walked all the way from Bugis to Mustafa centre yesterday.

jaoh erh , definitely.

our aim was to search for a helmet , but eventually all the shops was close as we went out of the house at 6.30 pm.

met up with bby too at ctylink whilst he was skating wif acip, feeq n some others.

yeah.

imy boo.

again.

2009-02-18T17:45:00.003+08:00

wen i adressed someone as "kau" , it apparently means tat the r'ship we shared is nothing basically, wif no feelings attached on it's surface. so i dont get how you can jump to conclusions n thus being uptight about the previous post. if we're heving this tiff just because i mentioned about him, guess u're juz wasting ur time coz i wont abide to censure u anymore or to beg for ur forgiveness. i wont betray ur trust. i told u i wont ride any guy's bike ever again n im still standing on that term. i spend my days in school and at home. all ive been doing is homeworks n reading some shitty books almost ALL DAY. i led my handphone to be dead,too. there! its all about you now in my life! yet u r still treating me dis way..
erghh! cut me someone.

2009-02-17T16:12:00.004+08:00

OMG.
my friendster is DEAD. for real.
maybe, im juz too lazy to reply to ppls' comment n dont freaking bother to add ppl up OR perhaps i hev a hideous pic/face?
maybe its all of the above.
lol. i dont care.
nyehh~
should i just delete it n get it over with?
wa pondering~

anyway, whre in the world is Farouq?
he told me."pape on tues aku kol kaw"
till now, i haven received a single ring from him.
buey sia. Bagozz.
nyehh~
ow well. i dont care too. tido pon baek.
we actually planned for a meet-up-session..
n it was supposed to be today!
its been a few month since ive met up wif him n he confessed that he misses me.
soo, why not meet up ryte? apparently ive nothing to do at home anyway.

1 week 2 days n still counting.
should i fall down to my knees n beg so that i cud meet up wif u,boo?
imysm n im confused of what my feeling is right now, anger or hurting by every sec?
doesnt it bothers you about the way our r'ship is fading?
or is it juz me?
remember the wish that u told me while the new year fireworks were booming on the sky?
it was so sweet till i felt like crying on that certain moment.
i am trying so hard n i jus need u to prove it to me that u still care.help me laa.

i am freaking glad that i can juggle my outside werld from my schools'.
im improving.last year terok gilek.
yey.*jumping wif joy urh!

ok daa.

2009-02-15T14:10:00.003+08:00

date wif huda , aisyah , seri , Nur n syaff went perfectly well yesterday.

funny.

especially the dog-catching part.

hahaha omg lucu sia!

i noe , they noe.

woo.

me , nur n syaf headed to cthall soon after aisyah n huda left.

ok so ,28th feb plak kk.

seoul garden! xD

i miss faz.

2009-02-13T23:01:00.004+08:00

went to Aisyah's crip straight after school today. we watched dvd n did more stuff. it was great ! woohoo.
i feel that i ate alot but my weight still insist from gaining a few more kilograms. any tips of how to gain wt ppl? gahh.

history test was fine but the time given seems to be a lil bit too constraint.i hope i'll pass. *crossfinger
yeah.im eager to go out tmrw.
i fucking miss this 'slengeh face' boyfiee of mine.erghh!

2009-02-12T18:13:00.002+08:00

visited the parliament house today.it was awesome to finally saw most of the minister having their political talks.n i saw Eunice Olsen. nyehh. shes preety laa oi. i envied her as she was elected by Mr President to be a part of parliament's constituency. shes young too. cool shiet.

saturday !
its valentine's day yet i aint spending my time wif faz. hmm. i hope hes fine wif it. we'll make up for dis day k bby . i can assure u dat. err, myb.xD
outing wif the gerls instead.
im stressing about wat to wear!
erghh!ape erh? hmmmm.
apparently-
i hate to wear heels , so dress is totally OUT.
i hate to wear shoes, so shoes is impossible too.
i hate wearing slippers jugakk .
ala..stress siakkz.
kaki ayam suda kann.
woo.

ok anyway im glad everything between us is fine now.well, seems like every issue will eventually end wif a blissful ending.its so predictable yet soo hurtful to start with.no more fighting k boo.im tired.effing fucking extremely tired. ily.

i miss someone.-----. go figures!

2009-02-11T18:51:00.008+08:00

im trying utterly hard to resist the temptation of sending you a message or giving you a call.
I hev no idea of how to ease the tension between us, anymore.
erghh.
help me.

2009-02-09T00:57:00.003+08:00

nyehh~

juz came back from town wif bby , acip n feeq.
yea.
dorang due2 reborn rmbut la seii..
gahhaha.
lawa2!

bby's face is gettin fine by days.
Alhamdullilah.
He uses OXY 10 n left it overnite fer 2 straight days.
now his face look sunburned.
tulahh.
bodoh peh bundai!
nyehh~
ily!
weee..
hehexD

kk wa da ngantok.
nari skola.
5 mre hours to go.
bye!
xD

2009-02-07T20:51:00.004+08:00

webcaming wif Abu Zarrin.
alala.
aku boring.
nyehh~

ive no mood to go out.
reasons is that i doesnt hev any decent footwear to wear.
pathetic.

7 march come faster can?

ya forget to inform me tat ficky mcged.
thus i didnt went out wif him today.
my sumptuous meal seiii..
gahh.
kk takpe nex tyme.

Faz juz went out to meet hidz n cohetie.
he slept over again yesterday night.
ala imha. (i miss him already)

i miss this ^^

ok bye.

2009-02-05T16:57:00.003+08:00

tried calling him millions of time but to no avail he refused to answer.
dumbfounded, i head to my bed n
drowned myself wif the fantasizing content of Breaking Dawn.
wen suddenly my eyes turned droopy..
dere came a knock on the door.
he came.~wif a 'flower' on his hand.
-wen i least expected it.
ily bby.

im currently infront of the lappy wif a toncet in my head.
nyeehee.
stayed back after school n had laugh wif the regular.
it funny coz ive never stayed back in school fer the last 3 years.
pathetic, i noe.

i love math.
i effing love faz.
i fucking love my friends.

ficky owes me a meal.
yay yay.

nyehh~xD

2009-02-04T16:55:00.003+08:00

hev yet to reconcile bout everyhing that has happened yesterday.
i need ciggies to burry me from all this thrashy thoughts.
anyone? someone? can i hev a stick plz?

well i was reading thru my archieve and my eyes were caught to this poem ive created last year'

ive tried so hard to let u go

but my hardship was worthless,

because nothing seems altered.

confused on how u managed to find the strength to abide wif the dreadful consequences

while im falling apart wif no power left to endure.

pictures of u juz wont scarce away from my memories.

its killing me softly n slowly.

y must tis solemn fable be created?

couldnt blame u to any of tis happening fact

coz i was the one who was putting on a bravefront

to put my heart n soul to tis loveline which i knew it cud end anytime soon.

........

okey im too lazy to type.

but if u guys bother to read on , click on archieve*at the top n CLICK ON sebtember.

2009-01-29T22:17:00.002+08:00

1. The person who tagged you:
Siti Nuriha Bte Zakaria

2. Your relationship with her/him:
bestfriend ! nyehh~

3. Your 5 impressions of her/him:
funny, clumsy, gerek, irritating & sweet laa kan xD

4.The most memorable thing that he/she has done for you:
bnyk kot-

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you:
aww.haha.i cant remember.haa.-_-

6. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on:
OMG. utterly insane!!

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:
no . coz i will hate her , rite? enemy mahh-.-

8. What is the thing you want to tell him/her now:
AKU NK PKAI POWERPOINT NK UAT POJEK MALAY LAA!!

9. Your overall impression of him/her:
hmm , still wondering...

10. How do you think the person around you will feel about you:
ask them , nyehh~

11. The character you love about yourself is:
patience. i guess.

12.The character you hate about yourself is:
jealousy and intimidated by something or someone.

13. The most ideal person you want to be:
i hev no freaking idea.

14. For people who cares and likes you, say something to them:
"weee! sweetnye!"

15. ~~Pass~~ this quiz to 10 people to know how they feel about you:
1)Aisyahsasusu
2)Naeemah
3)Didie
4)Era
5)Nuriha
6)Faz
7)Ficky
8)ninie
9)ceetee
10)huda

16. Who is No.6 with?
me ! Hes my boo xD

17. No.9 male or female?
femaleee!

18.If No.7 & 1 get together, will it be a good thing?
errrr ....

19. What is No.2 studying about?
basicly the same subjct as me.

20. When was the last time you chat with No.3?
tis morng !

21. What kind of music does No.8 like?
hmm.. music like the Pinholes?

22. Does No.10 have siblings?
yeup ! 3 sibs n her cat is cute xD

23. Will you woo No.3?
no , shes a gerl !!

24. How about No.7?
hes juz a fren.

25. Is No.4 single?
nopezz ! shes taken yeah.

26. What is the surname of No.5?
bitch from hell!*grins*

27. What is the hobby of No.1?
kacao org !

28. Does No.5 & 9 get along well ?
no,they dont even know each other.

29. Where is No.2 studying at?
shuqun secondary schooL.

30. Talk something about No.1.
well , shes fun ! serious xD

31. Have you tried developing feelings for No.8?
NO , n never will.. hee

32. Where does No.9 stay?
Bukit Batok !

33. Are No.1 & 5 best friends?
dey doesnt noe each other!

34. Does No.1 have pets?
idts,

35. Is No.6 the sexiest person on earth ?
yeup the sexiest male in my life ! woohoo

36. What is No.10 doing now?
i donnoe,sLeeping.maybe.

yeah.
finally im done!

n i miss faz so much =[

2009-01-24T15:15:00.002+08:00

inactivating my soul to blog for a few days.
malas urh.
nyehh~
Do tag tho.
xD

2009-01-22T15:36:00.002+08:00

at boochy's house.
yeah im bored.

manerr faz daa?
im clueless of where my boifiee is , if he've woken up or anething like it..
bagozzz per?
gahh !

2009-01-21T19:47:00.003+08:00

Boom Boom shake shake now drop~
nyehh .

stayed back in school fer 2 hours wif La , Bu , Mira , Naeemah N Mira's bro.

(we shud get mira n naeemah a nick too ! lol xD)

It was great~

socialising or shud i say, bonding?

yeah ow well it was fun. kecoh urh .

Today's plan wif Faz was rearranged again till Fri.

yeah great!

- sentence full of sarcasm*

=.=

imysm tho.

chomp2 ur bloody hawt spiky head off !

gahh .

okey now move .

BOOM BOOM SHAKE SHAKE NOW DROP !

2009-01-20T21:59:00.003+08:00

Ow well.
wanna start dis post by wishing Naeemah a veryy Happy 15th bdae !
well wishes yeah!
nyehh~

reached home at 4 due to some schoolwerk.
n im effing tired right now.
its not about coming home late from school but its because of some household chores dat need to be done.

omg.
o.o

its juz heartbreaking to whatever that is happening now.

imysm boo.

drown into ECLIPSE laa wa..

2009-01-18T17:01:00.005+08:00

for some weird reason, i kept listening to this song n it keeps playing in my head.
so nyehh~

updated my 'wishlist'-below to the left.
cant wait to ~~cancel~~ it one by one.
some things are juz utterly pathetic. eg nail polish remover ,
but ow well.
its helps me to remember vividly bout thing dat nid to be done , n about wanting it real bad .

ok im bored.
n ive finished reading New Moon.
perhaps , dats the reason of y im bored .

boo.
skating smlm gerek but i prefer wen ure in my house .
to sum up , i love it everytime u slept over n lao nk berak gi bilik mak .=p
imysm.

2009-01-15T19:04:00.002+08:00

woah.
1 more day bby!
nyeah.
k wa sabar.
gahh.
chomp2 ur spiky head*

im in love wif Edward!! shh jgn blang Faz. ha ha.

xD

2009-01-14T22:26:00.003+08:00

(563-289) pages to go.
i wanna get a grip at Eclipse.
yeah soon i hope.
but its impossible as D is still at camp , having fun .
gahh .
im bored , at school is much more worst .
i effing miss faz.=[

n yah.

i miss my eyebrow piercing.

2009-01-13T15:31:00.003+08:00

ive finished reading TWILIGHT! n yeah watched the movie too.
nyeah.
currently on NewMOON..
woo..
compared to the movie , i tink that the book is much more fathomable.
its much more detailed.
so yeah.
im addicted to Stephanie Meyers'!
*
all the sec 3 is at camp having fun ,
while all those retained were left rotting at 3/3 classroom.
ow great.
=.=

2009-01-12T18:28:00.003+08:00

Met up with Boo yesterday.

chill at Yishun n head home at 11.15 pm.

its a good thing that i doesnt felt sleepy during school today.

D entertained me i guess. tu pasal tak ngantok. tanx laa bebey! *bwk new moon besok!xD

K WELL.

im outta here.

k wait.

gud luck to Hyrul , Sani n Zai!

amaciam results erh?

hmm(?)

aku rindu BOO=[

k darx!

2009-01-11T14:03:00.008+08:00

Had a fun filled day at Sentosa yesterday.

pic toking. im lazy banget.

picture taking at the toilet~

me n nur.

i did tatt-s(n its a skull) tilt ur head~ SHH JGN BLANG MAK. Ha ha !

me , nur n syaff - swimming

syaff vs me in the gladiator~ look at the video below. *it takes a while to buffer- jadi bersabar laa.=]

me in black syaff in pink

durr ! i won !(abeh syaff tak puas hati so she treat me for a second match)n she won fer the second match.

nyehh~ we played frissbee too~

yabbing yabbing..

we were dere to support abg sha as he entered the HUNKS N BABES compt.

he was qualified to the finals. well yeah. body nyeh wooo!

k bleargh.

im outta here.

*kan best lau Boo vs Bee in the gladiator. cnfirm kekek. hehe. ily.

2009-01-10T00:43:00.002+08:00

just when you think its reconciled , acpted , long forgotten , someone points it out to u n it juz hit u all over again , tats shocking
but truly a blessing .
thanks bby=]

im sorry.
ily.
i fucking hate to see both of us in a foul mood.

2009-01-08T19:31:00.002+08:00

a colossol event that perplexed koochy.shiet.=x

2009-01-05T22:00:00.002+08:00

after saying ily to him i rushly signed out n went straight to my bed .
kecik hati urhh. =(
Tried very hard to diminished any negatives thoughts n shut my eyes but to no avail i kept tossing n turning with so much hesitations.
freaking bored n my eyes doesnt seem to shut.
i hoisted myself n the next thing i knew , i was holding up a trash bag , on the verge of cleaning up my ow-soo-messy-room.
nyehh~
my room is super clean now.
woo.
*keep urself occupied n u'll tend to restrain ur mind from any problems . i guess .

~i noe it had nothing to do wif me bby. but i hope u cud share everything or anything to me . i wana be by ur side to any obstacles. ilysm =[

2nd day of school
~nyehh it was better than the first day . made friends . remained in the same genious class - actually i was transfered to syaff's class but eventually being transfered again . jadi aku remain -thanx soo much to that lady in black . gahh. nyehh i noe u noe who. ^^ still missing the sec 4e students.
i just hope the days to come is goin to be better .
InsyaAllah.
=]

k im outta here.
*yawwwnnnn
zzzzZZZZZZZ =.=

2009-01-02T17:59:00.008+08:00

Nyarii fersz dae of sckool ARH SIOL !!
Nyeehee~
K well Fifie ARH SIOL juz crossed my mind , dats why.
currently reminiscing abt his existance last year..
he help me to ace similar figures ow-soo-awesome !
i wish him all the best fer o's.
ow well.
srewed him. - i mean his tales .
nyehh~

me n syaff was transmitted to two diff class.
guess the school wanted to oppose us from sticking together.
but come on ahh , putting me in an A.MATH class?
definitely out of your mind ! utterly insane !
gahh.
told mr [?] abt transfering and i really hope that i could be transferred soon.
dun tink i can put up wif those 'genious-es' . durr .
ok , first day is ok.
my mind is still in a mess though - it needs construction !
havent adapt to the fact that hols is over n school has *fucking* started.
=.=
no more late night sleeps-
no more waking up in the wee hours-
homeworks-
projects-
ow-fuck-i-dun-wanna-think-about-it.

class is different.
yeah.
i miss all the students under cg ismail in sec 3e last year.
=[
*tanx hanz fer the motivation -'' do not give up ''
I HATE TO BE RETAINED.
yurh .there , i said it .
erghh.
n guess what -
i didnt get caught fer my hair attire checked which i wanna say ''woahh yessar!''
a good start fer a new school term , i guess .
art n hist is gonna be fun.
great teachers , great memories. well , hope so.

since im no longer working , one of my new year resolution is to managed my welfare n to saved up.
so less goin out n more stayin at home.
guess money talks in this epoch.
current saving = $3.50.
*I wanna make ***** the happiest ****** on *feb n * feb.
i noe u noe but most of the public dunno.
Insyaallah .
wee !
xD

!syaff's out to sentosa.
i hev my excuses for not going but mostly reasons. !

T.G.I.F !
Happppy bdaeee feee !
wishing u all the best nyeah ~
& & bby !
its officially one year tat we're 'togeda'
ily !

*i miss fadzly soo much i wanna chomp his spiky hair off!
gahh !!
meet me tmrw , or come to my house . plz bby .coz i tend to waste my money when im outside.
n i dun wanna dat to happened.
ily again!

k im outta here.
xD

2009-01-01T12:04:00.003+08:00

Goodbye 2008..HHHEEEEELLLLLLOOOOO 2009 !!!!
&&
Happpy bddaaeee to Huuuzairuulll n Fyzaa !!
wee~

tmrw is the start of the new school term.-
still hev no freaking idea of which class i will be assigned to .
nyehh ~

countdown was a blast.
*i wanna be in ur arms again while we stare at the booming fireworks.
gahh ily bby.

saw ficky , yan , zai , hyrul & amir yesterday.
its been quite some time i met wif u guys.
korang missed !

*am still wondering why all the 'goodies' get those 'badies'.
hmm.
=x

2008-12-31T15:46:00.001+08:00

i wonder why some drat declare themself as single to some prat while they were actually in a relation wif someone.
ow well.
=x

2008-12-30T12:55:00.006+08:00

i dread wishing for school to reopen soon.

truth is-

im not even close to ready.

havent redyed my hair.

havent buy the school books , nor shopped fer all the school supplies.

new classmates.same topics.

*dunno if i can put up wif all tis shiet.

ow *fucking* well..

gahh !

nyehh.

the planned wif rynie was rearranged-AGAIN

guess i'll juz rot at home .

1 more day till 2009.

wats is ur new year resolutions?

n wat is ur most memorable moment in 2008?

hmm.

mann , gonna miss havin' u guys arnd in class=[

nyeah.

the previous post was meant fer faz , not syaff.

nyaahaa x)

2008-12-28T19:02:00.006+08:00

im smiling so wide in this shot n im clueless why.

Mann we ain't talked since we left

It's so overdue

It's cold outside

But between us

It's worse in here

The world slows down but my heart beats fast right now

I know this is the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer

Thought that we were stronger

All we do is linger

Slipping through our fingers

Everyday takes of the same old scene

Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine

Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep

But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me

I know you'll ask me to hold on

And carry on like nothing is wrong

But there is no more time for lies

Cause I see sun set in your eyes

overeacting it may seem.

holding back the acceleration to trigger

i juz couldnt move without exploding.

im sorry too bby.

i just hate this part right here.

imy.=[

2008-12-28T02:27:00.004+08:00

ow well.

its 2.24 am in the morning.

anyone wanna guess whre im at?

nyaahaa~

im at tis typical neighbourhood which is full of matreps n scenekid.

Yishun la deng.

gee.

~thoning wif faz.

ok im bored.

ini random~dis is wat we've been doin.

2008-12-25T22:48:00.004+08:00

soo..

actually somebody did brought along a camera.

*cross referred to the previous post.-sentosa

wee~

bfore meeting the rest~

bdae cake-hancur-was hit by a ball.

candid,bby !

the gerls arnd.

random~

*BOO IMY !!!

2008-12-25T14:14:00.004+08:00

okie woob.

i wanna start tis post wishing Huda all the best wishes n heppi 15th bdae !

&..&..

Merry Christmas peeoople !

gahh~

my head still sore due to skating yest nite.

was attempting to do olie but eventually dropped flat~backward wif my head viciously hit the floor.

hurt?

fucking-extremely-hurt sia.

erghh!

Faz n Shalam(ya's guy) sleepover at our crib tooz..so dis also means that i doesnt get much of a slp.

im so sleepy,im so destroyed.

yawwnnnn!

=.=zzzzZZZZZZZ

2008-12-23T13:34:00.005+08:00

hey you !
yes you..jerk
how mny times hev i told u to mcg me wen uve reacched home?
i got soo fucking werried bout u till i cant possibly slp in peace.
its not once,or twice..but its been multi time since uve done that.
is it so diffclt to spend juz a few second to type n send e mcg?
erghh!
bodow peh bundai.
imy.

nyeah.
im currently at home.alone.everybodys out to toa payoh.
kitchen is empty.no food.im fucking hungry.
effing tired.body cramps.headache.wana racked out.

yest trip to sentosa was a hell of fun !
dan,aliif.sri,fat,nabil,syaff n dunno his name make it all happened.
no pictures as everyone doesn bring along a camera.

ok boo.
sway to the tunes of The Sallys !

2008-12-21T00:41:00.002+08:00

juz reach home from a trip to...TOWN!
lol.
ok well.
wen skating wif my cyg,acip n feeq.
had fun.
yee.
woohoo!

hepi bdae to kakti n syaff.
smoga pjg umur n murah rezki.
wee~

i cant wait for school to reopens.
seriously.
counting down the days..
12 more days erh?
ok well.

to faz n katek.
r u guys sure u wan me to pierce ur eyebrows?
things to consider wisely~
wat if i pierce it wrongly n blood wont stop dripping?
wat if my hollow pin is not the same size as ur stud?
wat if i pierce it weirdly? i mean senget or too far..
wat if i turn u guys into two blind mice?
i wont mind if u guys hev an insurance(the eye).
mepek sey aku.

hmm..pretty bored rite now.
grr.
i cant wait to turn 16.
its easier to find a job wen im 16. yurh rite.
was window shopping at far east n i saw this omfg-gorgeous-cute-pink n black shoes.
ori cost was $175..but since its christmas(i tink) the cost of it is just $85.
cheap? definitely!*HINT3

yabbing~
bby can i hev dat shoe fer christmas instead of a sk8board ?
grr.
OK woots.
luv u hun !
xD

2008-12-19T16:29:00.003+08:00

Fiq told me that theres gona be a gig tis sun.
The comic strip is performing.
n.
no its not hardcore.
tapii ska.
wee~
been quite some time since i met up wif him.
the last time was at Noise November..
aneway..this sun is also kakti n syaff bdae.
so dun tink i'll be able to attend. boo..
shalam is comin to my house to cook some dishes.
and juz fer anyone info..
shalam bdae is dis sat.
its tomorow !

anyway dis is fiq.

n hes a punk ! cool per..
wootzx !

*bby..make urself free k dis sun. ily wee ~

2008-12-19T12:01:00.003+08:00

theres a big mountain emerging outta my skin at my nose.
technically..what im trying to impart is that..
I HAVE A PIMPLE GROWING OUT AT MY NOSE !!
N ITS EFFING HUGE..ok well dats what syaff describe it as.
Now since its near my eyes..im clueless of if the soul oppsite of me is staring at my mountain or looking directly at my black pupil.

"stop staring at my pimple u freak !"
gosh..

omg.
juz deleted many of my affiliates.
kalaw nk move pon tlg la bilang.
=.=

cant wait for tmrw's outing.
weee~
*ily bby.
xD

2008-12-18T21:13:00.002+08:00

i knew today was goin to be different.
and it does.
i miss my cyg.
=[

2008-12-14T19:50:00.004+08:00

chatted wif Aok today.
received the news that he baruu kuarkan motor a few days back so yurh it was a shocking news when he mentioned abt goin riding together.

aok says dat i was trying to discriminate them.

after a few hours of tension, everything seems to return to normalcy.

i mean since when hev i tried to discriminate them?

its juz that im bz wif boifiee n stuff.

noh kol. aok planned. we meet up.

chill wif noh n aok juz now at teban.

n its my first fcking time to rode a scrambler.

(scrambler-is tis ow its suppose to be spelt?)

i mean as the pillion ofcoz.

Aok peh perah seram gilerr oii.

effing2 scary.

quite a few times i cant keep up wif his changing of gears n felt like being swooshed to the back.

luckily i didnt fall.

woob~

Aok is juz my x collegue taw cyg. tkmo jelez k. ily.

2008-12-13T15:09:00.004+08:00

dunno wat had came over me.
effing lazy to go out n hev fun wen i was the one who loves to socialise n meet up wif frens.
its a freaking saturday sumore.
juz rejected zarin,who invited me to chill at sembawang.
n noh n aok also ajak lepak at town.
they were pissed. aite. figures.
typical of guys huh.

planned to meet up with faz.
but apologies dear,
i just feel like rotting at home n drowned myself into books.

i cant bloody wait to turn 16.
erghh!

*found this 35 secret thingy at friendster.
ive nothing to do anyway..
copied.
so here it goes.

Message: 35 Little Secrets:
Be honest no matter what!

[ONE] Who was your last text from?
Boochy.

[TWO] Where was your default pic taken?
Roomie.

[THREE]Your relationship status?
In a relationship i guess? figures.

[FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend?
Soo many to be mention.

[FIVE] What is your current mood?
Dope.

[SIX] What's your sista's name?
Sarawati,Syahirah n Syafiqah !

[SEVEN ] What's your favorite color(s)?
Red. black. pink.

[EIGHT] With Who do you wish you were right now?
Fazly =[

[NINE] Have a crazy side?
Who duns ?

[TEN] Ever had a near death experience?
While riding a few weeks back.

[ELEVEN] Something you do a lot?
i do alot of reading lately.

[TWELVE] Angry at anyone?
Nehh.

[THIRTEEN] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
im att aneway. dweeb.

[FOURTEEN] When was the last time you cried?
Ntah.

[FIFTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
yeah dere is.

[SIXTEEN] Love your Boyfriend?
apee jee. durrh.

[SEVENTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
my baby.

[EIGHTEEN] What are your favorite songs?
latina swing-the sallys

[NINETEEN] What are you doing right now?
watching miss universe 2008

[TWENTY] Who do you trust right now?
some people out dere.

[TWENTY-ONE] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
dunno.

[TWENTY-TWO] Have you kissed someone in the past week?
my boifiee?

[TWENTY-THREE] What is your lucky number?
idk.

[TWENTY-FOUR] Who are your friends that are closest to you?
Boochy.

[TWENTY- FIVE] Describe your life in one word?
funny.

[TWENTY- SIX] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
haven. shud try erh?

[TWENTY-SEVEN] Who are you thinking of right now?
many people~

[TWENTY- EIGHT] What should you be doing right now?
sleep i guess.

(TWENTY-NINE)If you could wish for something over a birthday cake right now what would it be?
a job.

[THIRTY] What are you listening to?
nothing.

[THIRTY- ONE] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
My baby.

[THIRTY- TWO] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
no one.

[THIRTY- THREE] Do you act differently around the person you like?
nopez..but i do blush alot.

[THIRTY- FOUR] What is your natural hair color?
Black.

[THIRTY-FIVE]Who was the last person to make you laugh?
uncle.

Answer the questions and re-post as "My 35 Secrets"

hahaha.
dope.
xD

2008-12-12T22:32:00.003+08:00

whats with people nowadays ?
freaking people going around disliking another person..
to think,i aint a floozie for goodness sake.
wth.

im missing people. effing.
figures ~

2008-12-10T19:52:00.005+08:00

school hols suckz n i bloody cant wait till school reopens.

im trapped in the abyss of boredom n its killing me.

gee.

aneway hari raya haji was a blast. counting out the time i spent at nenek's house ofcoz. okei well , we head vivo to have a meal at pizza hut after droppin by nenek's . ya n shalam gave us a treat. we had to force them or else i dun tink i'll be given a chance to eat hawaian.

~zuee mcged on tat same day hoping dat we could hev a 'date' but its sad, tat ive alreadi have a plan goin on.

its juz dat hes off to dooms land* the day after. * National Service

n his hair! ~chopped chopped!

woob but he told me dat hes a MORONIC SURVIVOR..soo all HAIL..

back to the usual..

me n faz-okei again.

*u said dat u wont flirt wif those gerls in frensta..hope u stick to dat vows huh darls..ily

im starting to love him all over again jus like the song 'fall for you'

realli feels dat the song depicts our situation~
woob !

ok fer the second time faz had a sleepover in my crib last fri nite.

bfore we eventually slp~

faz teaches me how to olie usin feeq's skateboard at the bsketball court near my flat.

some random pix~

faz n me~

n now i cant wait to have a skateboard of my own
~INSYAALLAH.
skating is PRETTY SCARY OK.

2008-12-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

ini random.

2008-11-30T12:41:00.002+08:00

okie well.
hav been hanging wif zuee's n clan at esplanade fer 2 straight days.
im tired.
n tat also means tat ive been going to gigs..
not harcore.-bleargh
First ever time to see The Pinholes performing.
n yeah.
i love The Sallys!
indie sia.
wee~
syafiq,feeq,noh,aok,venom n more was dere tooz.

n yeah.
fought wif faz.
n cant believe tat people were concerned..
fechichi,zuee,feeq,iswat..
tanx appreciate it loadz u guys.
=]

2008-11-27T21:59:00.002+08:00

been rotting inside the house fer 5 straight days!
wee~
*clap hand
nyeehee.

ow ahh yes.
faz tau mengatal jek siak.
grrr!
gerammm.
no.
bleargh2.
i dun mind.
k wth.
nyeehee.
*random*

I cant wait till tmrw.
meeting and flying whipping,bey bey!
weee~
=p
lol.

K BYE.
xD

2008-11-25T12:14:00.002+08:00

finished a book title 'Off Campus'
n was enthralled by some sentences there.
here it goes/

A new creed crystallizes in our mind?
this is what you'll do.
you feel low,you stand tall.
you mess up,you move on.
you want to try something, try it, and if it was a stupid thing to try, you look it in the eye.
there's no turning back.
you apologize if you're sorry,but know that the nimblest, stronger hands cant rebuild a bridge out of embers, so cut a new wood. start from scratch.
you love with your whole heart.
if you're jealous, talk yourself down from the ledge, have a good time up there, looking down into the world.
if you have to lie to make everything true again, lie like you mean it.
if you find yourself in a cage, reach out through the bar for the keys, unlock the door, and run away.
if running away gets dangerous, run home.
if home doesn't mean what it used to mean, decide what home will be in the future.
if your bestfriend says she doesn't trust u, hold her jaw in ur hand until it hurts, and make her face u.
thats all it takes.
if u tink you love a guy, see how his hand look at yours.
thats all it takes.
if u get exiled into a new land, then go discover it.
and if u feel like drowning, go swimming.
=]

2008-11-24T18:49:00.002+08:00

aaaarrrrrggggghhhhhhh!!!!!
heartbeats beating so damn fazt right now.
ow well.
finally!
after days of thinking bout u n wen onli smile,occured on my lips..
seems like everyting was shrewed today.
fuck it!
erghh!
ok wait.
hmm..tink i care so much huh?
shiet mann.

tanx zeuu fer making this a lil bit less heartache.
im sure u dunno what uve done but anway~woob!

2008-11-22T00:42:00.002+08:00

im in love with skateboard.
ohoh.
0.0

2008-11-20T14:19:00.002+08:00

saw those pictures of the BVB?
isnt they HAWT?!
*slurp2!
okie well, still unable to download their songs.
fuck it.
boo~

retrieved back our reportbook earlier today.
results-soo 'destroyed'!

*i miss babylove~faz.

2008-11-19T13:39:00.003+08:00

to Faz,Faz only.

i aint goin to create a tirade down here.

im sorry.

im not some gerl which is too obsessed with bikes.

its not fair,u know.

sori i didn bade you good morning like i usually do today.

i dun tink u wud want to hear anything coming from me too.

ily.

i really do.

*i didn let him to come near me n i was missing u the whole time.

bet u wont even believe tis sentence rite?

2008-11-18T14:30:00.003+08:00

im rooottttiiinnng at home and its effin killing me.

what a contradiction when i was out the whole of last week(ok,not exactly WHOLE) n stucked at home right now.

someone ask me out plzz?

gosh

shrewed boredom!

okey.

hev u guys been to Admiralty Park?

im sure all the republic poly students been there bfore.

(coz ayim imparted to me that,thats where the rp students held their performance or something like that-im not so sure.)

theres a stage,a restaurant,a pond which i doubt theres million of frogs in it(which look contaminated in some way)and a going up stairs-sit.

its nice okie.

well,perhaps i think so.

was there with ayim last thurs night to chill.

i effin miss turnin up to gigs.

hardcore gigs to b real.

the last gig i went to was 'noiseNOVEMBER' and it was full of skinheads n rudeboys/gerls.

so dis also means that their genres were ska,skinhead song n idk wat its kol.

didn blend in wif their cultures but IT WAS A GREAT EXPERIENCE though,being surrounded wif skinheads,punk and the rudies.

went dere wif Zai,noh,taufiq n a whole lot more.

damn,i shud take pictures wif them nex tyme.

coz they genuinely look so UNIQUE.

Zariin performing!

ow gosh.

tix at $5.

n hes not going to sing,(bet i cant listen to his voice,ever)

he goin to play the bass.

like faz,hes a bassist too herh.

cute guys~

i miss faz.

its sad tat i get to meet him only once a week.

maybe this long leash thingy is readily working soon huh.

BOO.=[

k till here.

darx!

2008-11-16T21:32:00.002+08:00

BOO.
im watching this 'ah kua' disc..
n
ITS EFFING FUNNY!!!
okie tak perlu bilang.
wee~

faz is infront of me-SLEEPING.
he seems so fatigue.
ok well~hes cute!
been chilling at my house since 12pm juz now.
glad hes here to entertain my boredom.
=p

clueless of wat to post actually.
boo.
till here.
xD

2008-11-15T23:28:00.003+08:00

boo!

k like syaf,im back again~tooz

been tru a whole lot of freeaaking things lately
but im well pleased that all those juvenile thoughts doesn engulfed me.
okie wth.

someone i noe..suffered from STD.
Herpes to b exact.
didn realised dat STDs was DAT scarryy until i read bout it in 'women health for DUMMIES'.
its easy to be affected.
so people,avoid SEX plz.(or use condom atleast)

Talking bout relationship..
okie well me n faz is still going on as robust as bfore.
well frigging hope so.
complicated wth.
boo.

met up wif dis 'big guy' yest after months of silence.
hes not as big as u guys may think.
its juz dat he kol me 'bdk kecik'.
n yur cant escape from the fact tat im small~
gee.

me playing wif his ow-soo-awesome-expensive-electric-guitar. lol.
n dis 'big guy' told me that he wanted to buy me an acoustic guitar.
well 'Insyaallah'.Amin.=]

im bored.
theres no more books to read.
k wait,hev i mention dat ive been drowning myself in books n visiting the lib lately?
a lil bit eccentric but wah its a fact.
lol.
the motive was to improvised my eng capabilities for next year.
wee~

retained huh?
arse.
all of my frens was shocked upon hearing this news.
but on the other hand im glad tat i was given one more chance(one more year) to make some amendment to my grades.
the only subject i passed fer eoy was mt.
to think that i can be promoted-funny.

n people, how do we spell out the werd tat hev the same meaning as 'fucking'?
effen,effing or effin?
hmm.

k boo.
stay safe.
still loving faz.
haha.
tc!
xD

2008-10-28T12:08:00.001+08:00

After a short but serious period of emotional upheaval, your life is finally going to start calming down. There could be one lingering drama that just won't die, but it will at least be small enough that you can ignore it for a while. This return to your routine is something quite welcome, and will make you appreciate the quiet joys of your life -- like having time to be bored! You'll enjoy having quiet moments by yourself, so try to get in as many as possible.

~boo!
believe in zodiac signs?
you guys should.
wakaka!

bleargh.
xD!

2008-10-18T17:42:00.003+08:00

ever had an experience where someone u love,care,cherish,need-who brought happiness to ur life..
trying to attempt suicide n was already sitting with one foot over a ledge of a 12 storey flat n dats when u received a kol from them?
i have.
~what wud u do if all of ur werds was make deafen?
~how will u react when u r trying to give them advise but yet they labelled u 'mcm pham'?
~wat will u feel wen u feel tat u need them so much in ur life,but they self-centeredly juz think about themself?
~want them to mengucap n tink of god..but how will u spurt out all of this wen they already didn believe in God?
im speechless..n faded.
its too complicated.
='[

hes fine now. im effing glad. =']

n yurh.

i'll be retaining dis year.

its confirmed.

sec 3e again huh?

maybe its fer my own good too.

2008-10-14T12:51:00.002+08:00

effing fatigue after three straight days of house visiting.
todae's plan with the pri skul peeps was postponed to fri.
ouse visiting with cetee ninie n clan tmrw.
k darx.
im tired.
puff.puff.
x]

2008-10-09T13:59:00.005+08:00

boo.
looking back at my archive n saw quite a poems which brought nolstalgic memories.
i would decribe this poems as mushy.
so those who hate mushy stuff u may evacuate from this page NOW.
=x

[composed by Faz]
first time he met her
never thought they'd be togeda
at night he's haunted by her
he wants her to be his forever
split open his heart and she'll see
how much she means to him
now she is his for sure
oh boy,she is his greatest treasure
without you the sun becomes deaf
to my plea for warmth
insecurity rips me like death
black as night black as coal
i wana see the suni wana feel the warmth
the sun goes downand i feel the light betray me
come down and save mefrom the dark apocalypse
and when the story starts
we'll go through every chapter
give me bliss to
complete this fairytale
and i'll love u forever
when she's gone he'll bleed
in misery he'll fade
syu i love you
syu i need you
now tat ur mine for good
your love i'll most treasure
and hurtin you i'll never ever.
i'll marry you
i'll bury you
i'll carry you to the end
believe me honey...

[composed by Syu]

i wan u to noe u make me hapi

i wan u to noe u created my theory

i wan u to noe u led my joy unfold

n lastly i wan u to noe,

u blind me of,glowin my soul.

ur cute serious face sparkle,

bringing curve lines to my face

there u are, u are my taste.

torment on my own was far gone

have tis faith tat my heart wont be torn

due to tis, due to dat

truly..im yearning for our nex kiss

u r too much for my incentives.

holding hard onto tis gripped

im becoming more stronger.

how do i explain these indigenous part?

damn,u r mine prom tart.

u've stole my heart..

n never deceived me right from the start.

if its the piercing brightness of ur eyes

it seems to b plotting a plot

it was u

it was faz

u juz cant get out from

my mind.

let entangled this web togeda

let us dance to tis song forever.

though dat bitchful agenda was like a mighty power

i knew my fate was lower

all these was for u to strive

i persevere n try to serve.

these prosperity treats was intricate to describe

may u hav a happy Valentine

i luv u cyg wif all my heart...

[composed by Faz]

remember the day tat changed our destiny?

me and my boys went out when we were confronted by someting pretty.

like the angels you suddenly appear,

you made all my conscience dissapear.

it wasn't like faz,it wasn't like me,

to fall heads over heels for you so easily.

but i did n never once regretted.

and come to think of it was dat day really fated?

but for 11 months we never let our feelings free,

till the worm feast on our hearts so hungrily.

up till then, neither of us had any clue,

day by day, both of us start to love the other through n through.

you waited four long months bfore she finally let him free

tried not to lie but confess you're the only one for me.

for 13 months you were left to rue,

wether or not to say the phrase ''i love you''

and wen it happened, it wasnt wat you expected.

the sea so calm suddenli overcame with tidals,

yet u held on to mast n got through the perils.

and when the sun appeared,your heart bacame cleared.

took me by suprise you did.

as i started to see how much u mean to me.

and so started a new chapter,

you lifted up the quil to end this chapter.

hurting me you promised you'll never ever,

you claimed me as ur greatest treasure.

and for tat syuhaidah bte zainol abidin dear,

i promiz to love u forever n ever...

[composed by Syu]

i was once told..

tat love doesn reali last.

bt why do i still put up wif it?

do i reali need u to b my kit?

i stared at the blank ceiling..

how shud i expressed myself?

how cud i expressed myself?

i am not force to continue this charade..

bhind tat smile lies a pessismistic soul.

for so long i try to fight wif this vicious crash..

though u were always dere..

u never were giving me tat extra pathetic care..

we definitely wasnt in a receptive mood..

how i wish i cud scream u for good..

u were killing me through..

what did u even do?

ting about dat..

coz i wont b here to tinkle to u bout this crap..

dunno if i cud still hold on to it any longer..

i tink i hev had enuf..

im sick..im alreadi to weak..

yet u still make me bleed..

overeacting it may seem..

but i juz dun care..

now i hope we r frens..

like the pass moment we shared..

[composed by Syu]

not another infatuation..

i was wounded by some vicious arrow..

wen the cupid was left stranded

wen all karma was left deafen..

i tried to find solace,wen i was left to rue...

sympathetically dere no one..

wantin to b my knight,shining armor..

woken up by tragic nightmares..

deres no more u..

for me to shed my tears too..

never knew how long the loving flame cud burn..

hev faith tat the wind wont blow me away..

im falling..n falling..

if only cud u see,how much ur needed,

how deep ur wanted..

i was walking carefully tru a dark boardwalk..

i miss the old days..

wen i was overjoyed to every letter of remembrance frm u..

like an egg my heart crack..

shattered into million pieces..

missing u due to any consequences..

we cant answer tis rhetoric agenda..

now my heart is pristine n empty..

i felt this way before..

its so insecure..

i need u so..i love u soo..

plz cum by..

ur the onli one tat stood in my heart.........

[composed by Syu]

seems like u dun miss me like the way i do bout u..

sory if im always clinging onto u..

can i sliced u open n steal back all my love from u..

coz misery i feel wen i tink about u..

i misses the time wen we were always 'me n u'..

wen i was bside u..

now im glad tat atleast i used to hev u..

is dere stil love in the air..tel me, wil u..?

if dere isnt,it wil be easier to frget about u..

ive created tis for u..

coz anew,im stil in love wif u..*

hahaha. END. xD

2008-10-09T12:34:00.002+08:00

math suckzx.
i suck too.
=x

2008-10-07T13:38:00.006+08:00

Ever wen through an experience when u feel as if your head wanna explode n blood seems to be streaming up to ur face?

i have.

-due to coughing.

lol.

people were concentrating onto finishing their papers while i was there trying to control this abrasive cough.

the worst thing was that the exam is being held in the hall.

gee.

stress sei.

apologies to all those people who was affected by the noise aiye.

if yur frustrated-i am EVEN more frust.

gee i kinda love having Mrs Quah to be our form teacher.

shes caring sia.

K BOO.

met up wif MetalJawa yesterday.

went PasirRis for some mere revision.

dulu.

skarang.

*look at how we both change in time.

Gee!

met up wif Faz too yesterday.

it was the first ever time i saw tears dripping down from his eye socket.

i care.

i love.

i need.

boo.

wee~

History exam tmrw.

i tink.

betta go n study bout Hitlerr now.

dADaRx~

2008-10-05T09:05:00.002+08:00

i wanna pierce my cheeks,like seriously..
boo.
i was captivated by Zuee's fake dimple.
xp

2008-10-05T00:56:00.002+08:00

someone special, a friend so true

exactly the same,yet different from you

she knows your thoughts without a word

understands your feelings before they're heard

may drift apart,but remains near

in her heart she holds you dear

your secrets safe, your faults untold

a bond of trust she will uphold

so cherish her as she does you

for remember, you're a somebody, too.

boo.

came across this poem a few days back n suddenly felt the urge to 'publish' it inside my blog.

gee.

terase?

feels that im refering to you?

maybe huh?

k pape tu kaw peh pasal..haha

what i know is dat imy rite now.

2008-09-27T16:43:00.004+08:00

boo.
im back again after a few days of dissapearance.
n err.
(0.0)

reflecting back on my past days.

weds.
met up wif ninie,ct,syafiq n amir to break fast.
wee.. (some of the guys were unable to attend bcoz of certain reasons)
its been quite a while since we last met up wif them n to have an extremely joyful time together.
everybody is busy with school and life i guess. boo..
we ate at ljs and den planned to go fer a round of sheesha at bugis.
the first shop we wen to was atrociously mendak n they need to see an 18 years old ic in order fer us to smoke.
pathetic. but fuunnny tho!
unfortunately all of us were below 18 so thus we moved to another sheesha spot.
the second place was 'heaven!'
its called NABINS. (should go people!)
they doesn ask fer our ic n we even received a free drink.
cool huh?
to add on the 'heaven' part,the sofa was comfortable too..compared to the first place which we hav to sit on a carpet.(on the floor)
syafiq,ceetee,amir n ninie juz wont stop tickling my stomach with their absurd act.
juz couldn sit still heving them around.
jokers in the same roof,what more can we ask for?
huhu.

thurs
met up wif fazly.
he came to teban straight after school to fetched me.
sweet? nahh.. =p
we had buke at the hawker centre near my crib.
its been quite some time i met up wif him also.
so glad that i can vent all of my missing-ness towards him on dat day.
gee.
the mist between us was a drab at first.
but everything was altered moments later.
n yurh.
as the results=im happy!
sng cakap its not fun going out wif him if hes in a foul mood.
bleargh.
~he took his precious time to wrote me a letter which he showed me tat day.
but it wasnt complete.
i hope tat it will never be finish coz he told me tat he tend to vent all his anger anger by writing those werds.
dis means that in order fer it to be complete, he,on the other hand,on tat certain moment, is angry wif me.
i dun tink im able to abide wif this wrath anymore.
k boo.

we bus-ed to machperson n bus-ed back home.
everything went great n smoothly until faz missed the last train home.
i couldn think of any other solution bside asking him to walk all the way to teban so tat i cn acompany him fer the night.
but ..................bla3............................................
..........................bla3...........................................
eventually we r OK again.

*prove to me tat our love is as robust as before ..

fri
back home from school at 1 pm.
drown in lala land till 6 pm.
head to jp wif my sisters tinking tat deres a swensen branch at dere-but dere isnt -.- at 7pm.
waste effort n energy, so we took a cab to imm at 7.30pm
ate swensen at 8.15pm as dere was a long queue outside.
adeq,kakti n abg izan went home first while me n ya lepak wif ya's fren at 9.30pm.
back home-d at 12.30 am.
kol faz at 3.10 am.
wen back to sleep at 3.30 am.
sleep3...

todae
was awaken by kakti at 8 am.
took a cab to serangoon at 10 am.
walk arnd serangoon n found nothiing till 12 noon.
ride a cab to geylang at 12.15.
walk arnd geylang to buy kakti's,abg izan n syaf costume till 3.30pm.
reach home at 4.10 pm.

boo.
[okeh da malas nk type.]

IM EXTREMELY FATIGUE RIGHT NOW.
n where in the world is aidil?
gahh.

2008-09-23T16:06:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wish that i could juz turn back the time n mend all of my wrong doings.
Egoistic agenda kept on emerging whenever im wif him n thus no love was being shown.
ive tried to frget him,seriously..but nothing seems altered, i've hurt him,he've hurt me too..but all of it happened yesterday.. we cud be frens. infact all of my exes is still my friends. i wish we cud be like that too...
i knew dat tis day wud happened..still remember toking to him about it a few weeks back?
='[
im acting neutral now.but whats the point of acting OK wen im not.
might as well i spewed it all here coz i juz cant abide to impart it to him anymore.
boohoo.
i miss bundaii effing much.
='[
i hev no intention of clinging onto u again.
deep apologies.

how i wish i could open up my mind n realised dat studies is extremely important as so tat i wont always be absent from school juz like the previous semester.
VP, Mrs quah, the discipline mistress, n even the unit head has talked to abah about our lacking of attendance.
i asked mrs quah this morning if she feels tat syaf n me can be promoted this year..
n her answer was yes if we practice,practise and practise eng.
i wanna be promoted to sec 4e again lurh.
help me bundaii.
=/

okie yee.
going to hev buke wif ninie,ceetee,amir n the bbb, tmrw.
tak sabar.
da satu tahun tak buke togeda..but we did celebrate mine n ninie's bdae.
lamer sei tak jumpe.
gahh.
hope you guyz n gerlz can cheer me up..

klah.
till here.
xD

2008-09-22T15:36:00.003+08:00

boo.

syaf n me never attend school todae after two weeks of no absence.
my own self ache n my temperature's rising.
n gee it hurts.
lol.

ur name appears in most of my post recently huh?
ur friends has been labelling me n gahh it'll stop rite now kan?
coz this will be the last phase in my time dat im going to mention ur name anywhere.

i doesnt know them yet they took their precious time to read my stories n confession then start giving irrelevant comments.
sedih.
wth freaks.

spare me.

i'll tend to lose in every of your speech attack.
coz ure juz too good at werds..n who am i to matikan bdk 18 years old.
juz a 15 years old kid with no experience?
i am no match fer you.
i dont hate u n neva will.
tanx fer the roller coaster ride.
ours were the hardest n enjoyable ride ever.
i'll grow up.
u too aite.
c ya arnd bundai.

*every good things will end eventually.

boohoo.
=]

2008-09-20T19:33:00.006+08:00

solemn-isation over!
now back to the carefree syuu.
ooooowwwweeeee! ~cheers,baby!

am still confused over faz yearns.
am still missing his absurd character.
am still terrified too ponder about the future.
am still in doubt of guys THO.

boo.

after having an arduous moment regaining myself..i finally realised something.
i feel that im like turning into a toy sia.
falling into err.
("okeyla..i like you! but bluekx! i dunwan to be wif ue..wee!'' =p )
its like somehow im trying to decipher wats inside his heart hastily or censure him without even confronting him erh?
gee sorrie if my wild guesses aint true.
however,frankly..that is exactly how i felt towards this 'sgl and unavailable' thingy.
boo!

oritey den.
strolled along the busy road of geylang just now.
it was sweltering n my throat was suffering from ''i am thirsty syndrome".
managed to buy myself a costume which immediately caught my eyes the moment i step a foot inside the boutique.
i hate 'baju jolok' sei dats why.
syaf n ya is stil clueless of wat to buy.
boo its white in colour tho but anewae i love it baby!
the whole family will be wearin white this year.
guess we gonna look sacred erh?
lol

i was searching fer hari raya songs-techno version.
n i came across tis song which is on air in my blog page.
unless if u pause it, u cant hear the soothing tone urh.=.=
so plz enjoy the song as to so tat u will feel the anxiousness of tis festive season.
gee.
n guess wat.
todae is the last 10 days of tis year bulan ramadhan.
dat means todae or any days between 1 oct will be the nite of malam lailatul qadar..kan?
may god bless u guys.
=]

im stil munching to this ramly berger when my stomach is alreadi on the verge of exploding..
so i guess i wont be able to finish it lurh.
soo..any takers? sape nk?
haha.
im just fooling arnd k.
takde keje.

n toking abt keje,
im hoping tat i can be accepted in ya's werkplace.
gahh.
my eyes is yearning to see m shadow n to hear his voice real life.
gahh!

okie.
the today's horoscope to all piscesian/
~If you spend too much time thinking about another person's motivations, right now, you'll only get overwhelmed. You won't be able to predict what they will do next, so why even try? Let them be them and just focus on doing your thing. If you're waiting for them to make a decision before moving forward, then you're giving them way too much power. Go your own way, and if they want to come along they will let you know. It's not healthy to depend on someone to any great extent right now.~

macam paham sei.
=/

klah till here.
aku maseh sraiynadnug bundai.
it is juz so hard to resist this feeling.
0.o

2008-09-19T13:34:00.003+08:00

o.0...

Ive tried so hard to let u go,but all my hardship were worthless because nothing seems altered.
Confused on how you managed to find the strength to abide with the dreadful consequences while im falling apart with no power left to endure...
Pictures of u just wont scarce away from my memories.
Its killing me softly and slowly.
Why must tis solemn fable be created?
Couldnt blame you to any of this happening fact because i was the one who was putting on a bravefront to put my heart and soul to this loveline when i knew it could end anytime soon.
You really caught me off guard.
Where did my knight in shining armor dissapeared to?
I wanted you here by my side, but it was just a contradiction.
I yearn for your affection again.
I know that your decision is set and i know that you cant reveal those horryfiying truth.
Chose to be oblivious and ignorant.
Maybe, ignorance is really a bliss.
I used up my precious time to ponder while writing on my school desk alone with silent cries echoes inside me..
why must this tragedy be happening?
Why must you let me go when it is the phase of time when i needed you the most?
Why can't i abreast with you like we used to?
I hold back my tears not wanting to show my sorrowful emotions to all my classmate.
Behind that smile lies a pessismistic soul.
You hated the word 'attach' while on the other hand, i hate the word single.
Lets be ''sgl yet unavailable'' you told me yesterday.
Why cant we just use the word 'unavailable'?
We r not officially attach from the start and you knew it yourself.
R u omsonent to commit for me?
Why r u so callous mean?
Im hanging by a thread now.
You told me that you'll always love me..so wats the pont of all this?
It doesn make sense.
And my heart is not convince that you'll be here with me forever like wat u assure me all this while.
Im yearning for your existance again.
From me who love you all this while.
To you with the sweetest smile.